Watching the snow fall out my window, I wonder yet again, why we moved to a country that has such cold winters, with so much snow... Sure we read books on Canada, but I guess we still underestimated the true reality.
2018 comes in with more of a whisper than a bang. Getting home from work at 11pm, a glass of wine (or two), one son and his girlfriend in the basement, the other in his room, we came together in time for the countdown. This is all I want. It is more than enough for me.
Back in the day, when things were so different, and priorities so mixed up in the naivety of youth, I would have been out partying and celebrating with strangers. Now there is nothing that makes me happier than having my family together (well one thing would, having the WHOLE family together).
It never ceases to amaze me how priorities change over the days, weeks and years. As a child/youth, its all about the gifts... As a parent, the gift is all about togetherness. There is no price you can put on having a close family, let alone having them all under the same roof.
Absenteeism cuts the spirit a little. Missing parents, loved ones, gone but always there in our memories. Perhaps that is what makes it different. Realizing that the trip is so short, and it really is all about the journey, not the destination.
Looking forwards, confusion hits me. Wanting to make a change in location, but fearing the possibility of the boys not wanting to come too.. Will I ever be ready to cut the umbilical cord?
Living in the present, is the best bet for me right now I think. Day to day, enjoying my new job, enjoying having the boys home, relaxing, taking stock. Too many people, myself included, waste too much time, effort, and emotional energy in chasing the dream, always looking to the future, or thinking nostalgically, rather than living in the NOW. I find this particularly so here in Canada, but then again it could be everywhere, I don't know...
2018 comes in with more of a whisper than a bang. Getting home from work at 11pm, a glass of wine (or two), one son and his girlfriend in the basement, the other in his room, we came together in time for the countdown. This is all I want. It is more than enough for me.
Back in the day, when things were so different, and priorities so mixed up in the naivety of youth, I would have been out partying and celebrating with strangers. Now there is nothing that makes me happier than having my family together (well one thing would, having the WHOLE family together).
It never ceases to amaze me how priorities change over the days, weeks and years. As a child/youth, its all about the gifts... As a parent, the gift is all about togetherness. There is no price you can put on having a close family, let alone having them all under the same roof.
Absenteeism cuts the spirit a little. Missing parents, loved ones, gone but always there in our memories. Perhaps that is what makes it different. Realizing that the trip is so short, and it really is all about the journey, not the destination.
Looking forwards, confusion hits me. Wanting to make a change in location, but fearing the possibility of the boys not wanting to come too.. Will I ever be ready to cut the umbilical cord?
Living in the present, is the best bet for me right now I think. Day to day, enjoying my new job, enjoying having the boys home, relaxing, taking stock. Too many people, myself included, waste too much time, effort, and emotional energy in chasing the dream, always looking to the future, or thinking nostalgically, rather than living in the NOW. I find this particularly so here in Canada, but then again it could be everywhere, I don't know...
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